Monday, February 21, 2011

Yeah, just.... no, nevermind, just no

This pretty much describes how i feel tonight. Just got home from work and almost broke down.
Broke down before work for sure. Tonight, when i got home, i didn't bother getting out of my car. I just sat there for an hour. Just sat there, contemplating. My choices are stand up for myself and ruin all my chances. or surrender, roll over, and hate myself forever, while still getting nothing to benefit myself.
I need a new job, i need a significant other who cares about me, but isn't so helpless that i'm taking care of them for them. I need to go to school. I need to make more friends. I need to go out more and have fun.

I'm beginning to hate my weaknesses right about now. I'm sorry, tonight kinda sucks. I'll give you another picture, something nicer... ummmm
I know it might not be appropriate, but it always makes me smile! always always always!


  1. the pic is epic!

    dude cheer up!! u have to snap out of ure rotine, go out have some fun, meet people..

    u're going to get thro this!

  2. cheer up, standing up for yourself is always important, especially at work, it shows your bosses that you are strong enough to have big responsibilities.

    about your SO, if you already have one that doesn't care about you, dump them, they don't deserve you caring for them, if they can't take care of themselves, you should talk to them about it, and help them to learn how to do it, and if you currently don't have a SO, get out and find one!

    about friends, the best way to make friends is to be friendly to everyone! and i mean EVERYONE, the cashier at the store, that annoying waiter, the nosy neighbor. everyone!
    soon you'll find someone that might just be friend material.

    and if you'll do all that, fun is guaranteed!

  3. great pic! and yeah I know what you're going through but if I were you i'd be better to stand up for yourself....if you let people kick you down once then they'll keep doing it again and again...have some fun, meet new people and don't wallow in self pity because that is not the answer, remember that you control your own destiny and nobody else can take that away from you and if you can then yes, study, maybe bat nights, and get a degree in something you love so that you can have a career and not just a job.

  4. Dude don't let the little things in life to crash you down and ruin you. Things have always their bright side, believe it or not. Look for them.
    I love you sketch btw.

  5. This is pretty much how my workday begins; sit in the car for a while and wonder what'd happen if you just drove the Hell away and never bothered to go back. It's too tempting at times.